How to Keep Making Music When You’re Exhausted from Your Day Job

I have been talking about going for a music career, like really going for a music career for a very long time now. I am making to-do lists and practising, visiting open mics, and socialising with other musicians, but there is just one problem with the whole setup. I’m not making any money apart fromContinue reading “How to Keep Making Music When You’re Exhausted from Your Day Job”

Corona Depression and Lack of Motivation

I hadn’t written anything in weeks – no songs, no stories, no morning pages. I was struggling to get up to do yoga in the morning (so, I didn’t). I stopped playing music. But today I had a date with a friend – we were going to meet in a coffee shop and write. BothContinue reading “Corona Depression and Lack of Motivation”

On Losing Focus and Picking Up What You Should Be Putting Down

I’ve just had one of those weeks when you question everything, are too exhausted to do anything, and end up watching ‘Jane the Virgin’ and eating pizza instead of doing what you probably should be. I don’t know why I have these weeks, and they don’t come often. This time, I blame it on theContinue reading “On Losing Focus and Picking Up What You Should Be Putting Down”

Should We Fight the Single-by-Single Release Culture?

In October 2020, I planned my release calendar for 2021. I was going to release four singles throughout the year – nothing more, nothing less. “The release cycle of a song is three months,” my tutor said at uni, and that served as my guiding principle. The only flaw in my plan was that theContinue reading “Should We Fight the Single-by-Single Release Culture?”

Songwriting Habits I’ve Developed Over the Years

My dad was one of the first people to start a blog. I think he started it in the early noughties, and it was called ‘Me and My Lada’ because we lived in Russia, and he owned a Lada. He wrote in it regularly, posting once or twice a week, but sometime after our moveContinue reading “Songwriting Habits I’ve Developed Over the Years”

I Can’t Function Without My Morning Routine

When COVID-19 hit, it was the first time in months that I didn’t have to jump out of bed in the morning, and didn’t have any structure imposed on me by the outside world. At first, I revelled in the freedom. I slept in, spent up to an hour in the morning scrolling through Instagram,Continue reading “I Can’t Function Without My Morning Routine”

Why I Procrastinate

I just spent all morning scrolling through Instagram, and my only achievements of the day thus far include: an Insta Story, commenting on a friend’s post, sharing a new song I’ve listened to. I also had breakfast. Mornings like this make me feel guilty and useless, and I often end up overcompensating on other days,Continue reading “Why I Procrastinate”

Books that Have Motivated and Inspired Me to Keep Going Through Lockdown

Before 2020, I never read anything that could be classed as ‘self-help’. I’m not sure why exactly, but I didn’t consider self-development books to be literature, at least not the Susan Sontag/Joan Didion type. I thought some people spent more time reading books about how to improve something than actually improving it. And I’m stillContinue reading “Books that Have Motivated and Inspired Me to Keep Going Through Lockdown”

What I Write About When All There Is to Do This Year Is Stare Out of the Window

A couple days ago, a meme of Bart Simpson staring out of the window at the grey sky outside started circulating on my Instagram. In Berlin winter, it was strikingly fitting, considering how that was exactly how my friends and I spent most of our days. Writing this, I’m looking at the sky and tryingContinue reading “What I Write About When All There Is to Do This Year Is Stare Out of the Window”

Why I Started Incorporating Deliberate Practice Into My Daily Routine

This is me putting on a circus show for my parents. I spent weeks (or maybe really just a week) learning how to juggle, teaching my cat tricks, and mastering the magic of the disappearing thumb. Then I dressed up and made my parents watch me and applaud my endeavours. My dad sent me thisContinue reading “Why I Started Incorporating Deliberate Practice Into My Daily Routine”